my life in numbers.

My head is a little fluffy, 'Red Wine Friday' turned into 'Red Wine, Rekoderlig Cider and half a pack of Menthol Cigarette's Friday', which has now become 'lay in bed and scrutinize my life Saturday'... So bare with me, non of the following is guaranteed to make any sense.

Life is not black and white, decisions aren't always easy to make (especially on a dessert menu) and, though it kills me to admit it, the quote "you can do anything, but not everything" is true... welcome to my hangover.

I have announced to the world that I will pay off my debt of more than 30 grand and save enough money to travel the world for a year, which I figure will also be about 30 grand. I had planned to utilise $500 a week to pay off the debt, then save once the debt was taken care of. It seemed so simple, so black and white. What I didn't take in to account was;

Birthdays
Electricity bills
School fees
Broken down cars
Car insurance
Dental bills
Doctor fee's
The difficulty of giving up Cigarette's
Unpaid time off work
Hair maintenance
$800 weight loss gimmicks
Shopping addiction
The cost to Hire a Horizontal Bungee
Interest
Ect, ect, ect...

So, really, it's not black and white at all... It's grey... and barely legible! I figure it will be the end of the year by the time I start putting any noticeable dents in the debt that is currently ruining my life (And, no, I don't think "ruining my life" is an over exaggeration!)

As I stared at the ceiling thinking about my very own inconvenient truth, my ear's popped open and fixed on the radio at the exact moment a man with a summer-time voice sang the lyrics "if your going with the flow it makes it easier to bend" ... and then I realised, I need to relax... I'll get there, eventually. All I need to do is treat this as a numbers game, turn -30000 into 0... and then turn 0 into +30000. Easy Peasy Japanesey!

So now, I realise that it's the big picture that is black and white, the grey is just the speckley detail. The details make up the big picture, yes, but in the end it's the big picture that your looking at. Black and White = pass or fail, Do it or don't do it, win or lose.

After a melancholy day wrapped in my pretty peruvian blankie I decided to turn my frown upside down, as they say, and think about the good things, then I realised that being a Saturday, you might also be having your very own hangover induced melt down, so I decided to share with you some of the things that make me happy, and guess what... it's all in black and white. Sha-Boom!